Kerilyn is a mommy!!

My darling Kerilyn has finally adopted a baby! His name is Tyler Joseph and he weighed 2 pounds when he was born-I know, crazy! I was finally able to hold him this past weekend and I could not let him go! It was one of the greatest times I've ever had. He was born at 28 weeks so Kerilyn spent a lot of time in NICU familiarizing him with her voice and her touch. She would text me pics and one of my faves was of her holding him skin to skin on her chest. You could really see how tiny he was! To say that I'm happy for her is one of the biggest understatements of the century. I have prayed for this for so long as, I know, has she.
I just wanted to brag a bit!!!

The boys are in school!

Sam started 2nd grade this year and my baby, Nick, started kindergarten!! I cannot believe that they are both in school. Sam does not like school-he's having a hard time with the academic aspect of it. I think a lot of it is from all the time he spent changing from one school to another while I was in the hospital. Poor thing! But, he is doing great with the bully this year; he is really standing up for himself! He is even standing up for his new friends. He has made friends with a new boy that just moved here named Caden. They both love to look for spiders during recess and when they find them, they name them. He did have a kind of sad situation when they found a beetle and some bullies squished it. When Sam came home that day and told me about it, he started crying! I have such a tender little guy. I love it! I have heard that the scariest aspect of this new generation is that they are a generation of narcissists. What frightens me is that narcissists have a lack of empathy and my Sam certainly has empathy in huge quantities! I LOVE it!
Nick, for the most part, is loving school! He is doing so well; coming home every day and doing homework. Sometimes, he will have a hard time in the mornings getting up and getting ready with a positive attitude. Therefore, I ordered a cardboard treasure chest and filled it with small toys that I found on Oriental Trading for a great price. It gives him something to look forward to all day and it gives me something to barter with in the morning! Nick has the same kindergarten teacher that Sam had and she is darling with the boys. The wonderful thing is that she is aware of what our family has been through the past two years. She is so considerate and patient which is great for our boys.
So the boys are doing well, which really helps me do well. They say that if mom is in a good mood, the rest of the family follows, but I think if the kids are in a good mood, the mom follows. I just love it when they are happy and cheerful. It is great to watch them return to their normal, happy selves!

Someone wants to write my story??

Tony, my darling hubby, was waiting at Big O Tire the other day waiting for tires to be put on his work van when he started talking to another man who was also waiting for his car. They started talking about occupations and this man told Tony that he was a writer. He worked mostly for businesses or doing screenplays. He has worked for Disney in the past and has done screenplays for Oliver Stone and has done work for the Jeff Gordon Racing Corp. So this man is not just a small-town writer (not that there is anything wrong with that). They happened on the subject of my kidney transplant and this man wanted to know my story. Tony told him the very condensed version and he was very interested in writing my story! Tony and I are, of course, very skeptical about the whole thing. I mean, I would really like to write my story myself! But, if nothing else, its kind of exciting!!

Not so great day.

As each day goes by on my new antidepressant, I notice more of a change in the negative direction. Don't get me wrong-wonderful things are happening in my life: my boys are going to school; Sam is in 2nd grade and Nick has started kindergarten; I'm getting closer to my kidney transplant and the weather down here in southern Utah is getting closer to its peak time: winter. Most of the country looks forward to the summer months when camping, swimming and BBQ starts. Southern Utah; however, is blazing hot in the summer months with most of the days being over 100 degrees! The rest of the year is gorgeous with the temperature being about 15-20 degrees warmer that the northern portion of Utah. So, I have so many things to look forward to, but my mood is just not on the same level as the events. My doctor has increased my Zoloft to 100 mg, which doubles the amount that I started on. I'm not sure if that is the reason or if I just need counseling. I am going to look into that and; hopefully, that will help. I really do get tired of my mood going up and down. Up until recently, I have been so lucky in that I have been on such a high just from surviving my illness. I really have not been depressed or severely saddened from losing my fingers or my legs! It has been incredible, but that; unfortunately, has changed recently. I will keep this blog posted on my progress.